Photograph / Video, 2021
02’ 01’’

The original inspiration of this project comes from my dislike of some of my own shortcomings, such as lack of confidence, inferiority, lack of assertiveness, excessive dependence on others, avoidant personality, and so on. Then I had an idea that I wanted to escape from the real world, to refuse to grow up, to be a child hiding behind my mother forever and to build a wonderland.

There is a psychological condition called "The Peter Pan Syndrome". The main manifestation of this syndrome is that adults refuse to grow up. This led me to think about myself.

And look at myself, "refusing to grow Up" doesn't mean the right behavior. It's just a way of escaping myself and not facing reality. And the wonderland I want to create may not be as beautiful as I imagined. Therefore, "escape from the wonderland" and change myself and face reality is what I really should do.


这个项目最初的灵感来源于对自身一些缺点的厌恶，如不自信、自卑、缺乏主见、过度依赖别人、逃避型人格、讨好型人格等等。从而产生了一种想要逃避现实世界、拒绝长大、想要永远做个孩子躲在妈妈身后，并创造一个理想世界的想法。

而心理学上有一种称为“the peter pan syndrome”的病症。这个病症的主要表现为成年人拒绝长大。这引发了我对自身以及这个病症的思考，当代社会许多成年人面对现实的剧烈竞争和残酷倾轧时，越来越多的人喜欢“装嫩”，带着孩子气做事情，渴望回归孩童时代。

再结合自身，“拒绝长大”好像并不是一个褒义词，这只是一种逃避自我、不敢面对现实的方式。而我所想要创造的美好世界或许并不像我想象中那样美好。所以“逃离理想世界”，改变自我，面对现实才是我真正应该做的。

于是我编造了一个尿丸逃离现实世界到小岛上，并发生一系列事情最后回归现实的故事。